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Love was the final consolation, would set ablaze the fields of my life in one go, leaving nothing behind. I thought of it as a force which would clean me and by its presence make me worthy of it. There was no religion in my life after early childhood and a great faith in love was what I had cultivated instead. Oh, don't laugh at me for this, for being a woman who says this to you. I hear myself speak.

Even now, even after all that took place between us, I can still feel how moved I am by him. Ciaran was that downy, darkening blond of a baby just leaving its infancy. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen. None of it mattered in the end; what he looked like, who he was, the things he would do to me. To make a beautiful man love and live with me had seemed - obviously, intuitively - the entire point of life. My need was greater than reality, stronger than the truth, more savage than either of us would eventually bear. How could it be true that a woman like me could need a man's love to feel like a person, to feel that I was worthy of life? And what would happen when I finally wore him down and took it?

©2021 Megan Nolan (P)2021 Penguin Audio

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Disturbing read

I found listening to this book quite disturbing. I wanted to scream at her. Powerful writing and great insight into abusive, controlling behaviour and it’s devastation on mental health. If you have been in an abusive relationship and now in a better place, I’m not sure this is a book to read.

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Moving, disturbing, thought-provoking. Loved it!

Extraordinarily thought provoking piece. Disturbingly accurate dissection of a relationship. More an experience than a listen.

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Lack lustre and boring!

A total disappointment - such an uneventful tale of utter self absorption and lack of imagination! Extremely boring and depressing!!

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Stop scrolling and read this book

This book did not disappoint!
Beautifully sad , frank and incredibly relatable, I only wish I had been able to read it when I was younger. I look forward to whatever Megan Nolan does next.

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dragged out

I didn't get into the story line I got she needed & wanted love she self harmed when she didn't get the attention. I didn't like the book didn't finish it

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Great performance but rushed ending

For most of this book I was really invested, however I felt the ending was really rushed, as if the writer needed to finish and didn't know how...it didn't seem in line with the character throughout the rest of the book.
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Loved it from beginning to end

Poignant and evocative, I gobbled this up (both in audio book and paper copy) - highly recommend.

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Sally Rooney ?

Too similar to normal people. The pity me story line is annoying! Boring at points! The reader was good. Not worth it really 😂