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With My Eyes Wide Open Audiobook

With My Eyes Wide Open: Miracles and Mistakes on My Way Back to KoRn

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He left KoRn to help himself. He went back to help others. And along the way, he nearly lost everything.

A life-changing spiritual awakening freed Brian "Head" Welch from a stranglehold of drugs and alcohol and prompted him to leave the highly successful nu-metal band KoRn in 2005. What followed was a decade-long trial by fire, from the perils of fathering a teen lost in depression and self-mutilation to the harsh realities of playing solo and surviving the shattering betrayal of a trusted friend. In this intensely inspiring redemption saga, perhaps most inspiring is Brian's radical decision to rejoin KoRn and reconcile with the tribe of people he once considered family in the metal music scene.

Brian returned to his musical roots with a clear head and a devoted heart. Though his story is wild, hilarious, and deeply poignant, the message is simple: God will love you into the freedom of being yourself as long as you keep the relationship going and never, ever quit.

©2016 Brian Welch (P)2016 Thomas Nelson Publishers

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    Thermonuclear 17/11/2016
    Thermonuclear 17/11/2016 Member Since 2016
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    "Brilliant"

    I am 33 and korn have been my favourite band since I was 15. Unfortunately, through trying to emulate them whilst playing in bands in my late teens and early twenties, I failed musically but definitely achieved stardom as a drunk with nasty drink problems. I can see how Brian could get so low in a global metal band, as I did managed it in a small local scene playing with my friends! I never suffered the hardships he did after that time whilst getting life back on track so I think it's amazing that he took the long route back to korn and not the easy one that he could have and still managed to end up so well.
    The story is great, always interesting and very honest at the same time. Also being read by a voice I have known so well for 18 years, makes this book even better to listen to. Brian could do with less gravel in his voice, but it's just great to hear him read with the emotion he felt going through it all at the time.
    The sceptic in me surfaces towards the end, but people believe in what they believe in, and for Brian to engage the two worlds of religion and metal in the way he does is very brave and shows he means every word.
    I would recommend this book all the way.

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    Paul Smith 16/08/2016
    Paul Smith 16/08/2016 Member Since 2015
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    "Excellent, although a bit heavy on the religion"

    I am not a Korn fan, although I do like metal, and I am by no means at all religious. This book is,however, well worth the credit. Brian is a really interesting guy with experiences well worth hearing. An interesting insight into addiction, the music industry and a single dad trying to do right by his kid.

    Really glad I picked it up. What I would say is if you are really offended by the pedalling rhetoric of a born-again this book is not for you. It starts quite light and gets thicker as he gets closer to the present day. Not something I find particularly relatable but I can't begrudge the guy because it's clearly had an amazing impact on his life.

    Definitely worth the listen, it's gritty, honest and insightful. You don't need to be a Korn or Jesus fan to take something away from the book or be moved by it.

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    mark 21/06/2016
    mark 21/06/2016 Member Since 2012
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    "The most honest book"

    This is the most honest audiobook I have ever listened to much respect to the man

    If your thinking about this don't waste anymore time get it and enjoy the journey

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  • Maria Lindbloom
    Rogers City, MI, United States
    30/05/16
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    "A seriously phenomenal book!"

    What a brave, authentic, honest guy Brian is for writing this. Funny, I was never a big Korn fan back in the day. As a Gen X'er, I loved alternative rock but never had a fondness for the real hard metal stuff, so I never even knew the story of Brian Welch. I am so glad I decided to take a chance on this book. I've only been a Christian for about 7 years now, and my fiancé is about to get out of prison after a 13 year sentence for heroin-addicted crimes. He is clean, sober, and also a devout Christian now. His artistic medium is writing and novels, but he doesn't write conventional feel-good Christian stories. His book are about the Mafia, war, drug dealers, etc. He gave his life to Christ, and his faith is strong and true. Yet as he's getting ready for re-entry and we're working on a plan to publish his books, I've been struggling with whether or not it's "right" for us to be non-traditional and unconventional in our faith through these novels. Brian's story, his love for his daughter, his incredible prayers and most of all, his understanding of who God made him to be really helped me to finally come to terms about my role in our marriage and business endeavors. What a Godsend this book is! I feel so much more confident, joyful (and relieved!) about my hubby-to-be's novels and genres. This has been a real struggle for me. How does someone who doesn't fit the churchy "mold" try to fit into the ideal? Brian's story helped me to see that there IS no ideal. Every believer is ideal. You fight your own demons, you strengthen your own faith, you create your own personal relationship with Christ, and you follow your own path based on your unique gifts, talents and circumstances that the Good Lord gave us. All of it is good! My favorite line of the whole book is, "I was completely floored and humbled, and I sat there in my car in tears at the thought of how good, non-religious and non-traditional God's wild ways are." Love it. Brian's daughter is gorgeous both inside and out, he is an amazing father, and he is going to continue to do unbelievable things for Jesus. I'll be praying for the two of them, and will move forward confident now that I will be an awesome wife to a husband who is also going to do great things and reach out to an audience in a wild, non-traditional and unconventional manner. I can't wait to download Brian's first book and buy his album. His narration was terrific and added authenticity to the writing -- I listened to this audiobook straight through with no stops. Truly recommend!!

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Jeff S.
    Knoxville, TN
    21/05/16
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    "RAW, REAL TRUTH"

    I loved this audio book. It's the second audio of Brian's that I've listened to this year. The passion and love in his voice gives this book even more life.. I love how real and honest he is about his story. His vulnerability is what will set people free.
    It also opened my eyes even more to broken people. How God loves and pursues ALL of us. I remember when I was not a Christian, my teen daughter coming home with her first Korn CD. I broke it and threw it in the trash and cursed them. Ha! Look at who just spoke life to me... Brian Welch, of Korn. I am now a Christian and attend Fuse Church in Knoxville, Tn. I've heard amazing things about Brian since I first met Jesus. Evidently, he has visited my church a few times and has friends there. He's the real deal.
    Thank you, Brian, for opening my eyes. I love your story. Angee

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • jaxx
    19/01/17
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    "EPIC !"

    I am amazed buy Brian's story. mostly because it reflects mine so closely. I thought I was the only Metalhead left in the world who God called back into the scene to be Salt and Light 4 people that Jesus loves so much. I laughed, I cried, I couldn't take the headphones out of my ears. Got through the entire book in one day and one hour. keep walking the walk Brian and keep getting back up when the devil knocks you down. and never forget everyone's watching... No pressure dude!

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  • NH
    Michigan
    10/01/17
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    "Sigh, I love Brian, but this was difficult."
    What would have made With My Eyes Wide Open better?

    I'm not sure, it was difficult to get through.


    What was your reaction to the ending? (No spoilers please!)

    Haven't gotten there yet. Frustrated.


    Which character – as performed by Brian "Head" Welch – was your favorite?

    The good dad figure, when he was actually being responsible.


    If you could play editor, what scene or scenes would you have cut from With My Eyes Wide Open?

    A lot of em.


    Any additional comments?

    Yes he has emotional issues, but the constant shedding of responsibility was infuriating. "God please get me through this, oh, wow, here's 250 thousand dollars of royalties from korn." How nice. What are the odds that that would happen, given how royalties work in that business.
    He made mistakes, spent way too much money, needed money, spent way too much money, then more royalties would come in. Poor decisions, excuses, and more excuses.
    Then "God is testing me when things are bad, but he's bathing me in his light when I get tons of money due to business deals in my past." I can't do it. He admits he's made many stupid decisions, but man, it was almost stressful listening to him continuously shed responsibility and blame others for everything or thank god for everything. Yes, he blamed god a few times, but it's unsettling how often god answered his prayers. Good thing he isn't poor and unknown, because prayers are barely ever answered from what I've heard on that other side of the spectrum. If this book gives you comfort, awesome, more power to ya. It left me feeling at a loss to how someone could turn a blind eye to how the world works and how the power of celebrity works and chalk all that up to the supernatural. He seems to be able to twist anything to the power of god and it just gets embarrassing after a while. I just don't get it. And that makes me smile at the end of the day.

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  • Tim Clark
    Greenville, SC United States
    06/01/17
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    "So good"

    I didn't know what to expect from this book, but it was a huge encouragement to me. Thanks Brian for sharing how God has worked in and through your life. As a dad I could relate to the love you have for your daughter. As a screw up I could relate to the mistakes. As a child of God and follower of Jesus I could relate to the hope and faithfulness that only Jesus gives. Thanks for being real in this book. Peace!

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  • PATRICE E CHRISTIE
    20/12/16
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    "honest and raw
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    Brian is so honest and relatable. he is a great narrator.. like taking a walk and listening to an old friend... VERY inspiring and hope filled.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • kamarr richée
    29/11/16
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    "He should read for a living"

    My wife loved Korn when we were teens, and as devoted followers of Christ, found Heads conversion intriguing. I bought this to listen with her while on prolonged family drives, expecting it to be another example of me forcing her to listen to something edifying, but man was I wrong. The narration alone made this a joy to listen to, with Head doing a downright charming job of impersonating the various persons who color his story and life. In the end, this is a book that will inspire, encourage, entertain, and give hope. As an adult it is easy to feel that the younger people who still listen to "darker" music and the people who play it for them are far from God's love. The story of Brian Head Welch reminds us that there is nowhere God is not actively loving people, and no one he can't redeem and use for His ultimate glory.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Ludwig M Martinez
    COLORADO SPRINGS, COLORADO, US
    21/11/16
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    "Fantastic"

    I read the first book and it was awesome. This one was just as good.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Stacerz02
    Los Angeles, CA
    11/11/16
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    "another winner from head!!!"

    another winner from head!!! I loved this update from his first book. amazing things keep happening to head through Jesus Christ. i love how Head takes the Gospel into places many Christians wouldn't dare go.

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  • Clay Maynard
    11/10/16
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    "awesome read. Awesome performance by the author."

    I love this book. I will definitely be coming back for another read. I hope he does a follow-up.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful

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